Feeling Confused

I miss New Zealand but I love Sweden. I miss home but I don't want to leave. I miss things I know but I love the unknown. I miss only English but I have grown to love Swedish. I miss my family but I have one here. I miss the ease of life in New Zealand but I love the challenge of life in Sweden. I miss driving my car but I love catching trains everywhere. I miss the clothes I left behind but I love my new style. I miss my friends but my new friends are amazing. I miss my own bed but this one is mine too. I miss bated little old Christchurch but I love beautiful Stockholm. I miss everyone getting behind the rugby but ice hockey is the sport here. I miss school uniform but I could never go back to it. I miss never feeling underdressed but I like dressing up is now part of everyday. I miss speaking slang and everyone getting it but I have taught people some kiwi. I miss the old me but I love who I have become.